Bees have a compass to

Each season renewal does occur... even if it is a little battle scarred from the events of the previous season.
I renewed myself a little by taking off to the beach for a few days... collecting some favourite books & magazines & a journal & the fountain pen... I adore the flow of the ink when I write with these..
Then at the beach I explore or visit bookshops, newsagents, gift stores & the food supermarkets have different things in different areas...
I read, I drive, I walk the sands.... & within a day I feel the lawnmower episode fade....
That was redeemable, the lawnmower..how wonderful repair people are... whew !

It disturbs me at times as people grope to being a single lady in a world that appears to be connected... some must have an illness to distract them, others have bad experiences that have certainly messed with their minds for a time, others are in earnest to find a replacement partner... & some toss in excess work.... most are grieving a loss of one sort or another.

The ones I feel for are those that have totally lost their compass... there is no direction . there is no sense, there is vulnerability..there is a sense of being only half a person... the sun neither rises or sets... each day clouds over very quickly....

Take your compass, and go away from the known, no matter how scared you may be, how ill you may feel, how poor you really are.... go...by car, by train, bus, ask a friend to drop you & collect...
Go be with yourself & start to connect with the world out there... smile at the other lady struggling with a parcel & her gnarled body.... smile at the next one as you bend forward to pick up milk in the supermarket or corner store... turn off the mobile !
Be really brave & in no time that earns a little to the compass of your life.

Lawn mowers & instructions for blondes

Enjoy the blossom while I have a grumble...

LAWNMOWERS... brought a brand new one last week..after considering the cost of a service industry to cut down the weeds every 2nd week in summer with no drought.
There was a huge stress on adding OIL to it first before starting both at store & on some strategically placed yellow strips on mower.

So I have oil & fuel & mower & 2 instruction booklets both in have a bet each way... instructions for this or that model.
Some pictures & numbers of the components but no legend..just read through all the jargon ..even how to start was buried in the small print...
So what did blondie here do... when looking for oil spot & tried some thing with 2 black covered screws & couldn't undo so figures it is immoveable.... find a cap & pour a lot of oil in !
Then I go to put fuel in & am roaming around this green monster & back to books to finally dreadfully realise I have put oil in the petrol tank.

What I said was not in their instruction book....
Done now & maybe my dough too.... but fortunately there is a lawn mower service man in town..who may be the saviour of all single blonde women.
IF I WAS INTERESTED IN MECHANICS I WOULD HAVE BEEN SO COMFY WITH THIS WHOLE THING.... But I get my car serviced regularly for precisely this point... I don't know... don't want to know but nowadays a lot of technically or mechanical stuff is foisted apon us....
EG Get the right digital set top box for area etc etc tune it in... where & what are we teaching ... that isn't progress it is retards doing poor manufacturing & usually off shore that is international & translated to some poor standard & no guarantee re warranty & what is that worth if the multi nationals go broke in this the economic crisis... things cost good $$$ are manufacture cheap as can be & then foisted off in mega stores .. why do we take this ???

I hear the blackbirds

I hear the blackbird's clear spring song fill the air & it brings much happiness when I hear it.
The clarity, the music it is pure joy... and I never mind if he or she forage in the garden beds...
it is part of that bird that sings beneath my window

Come to the edge....

' Come to the edge' he said.

'I am afraid'

' Come to the edge' he said

She Came

He pushed her

and ...

SHE FLEW

This is a quote I found quoted in a book called a Year in Sunshine

I need to check on title..but magic book.

This quote says for me..when we are enticed in life to stretch way beyond our known boundaries.

It is scarey stuff to go over the edge & one cannot wind oneself back.... flying is the best option as it is so UPLIFTING, EXHILARATING.... & PLAIN SCAREY... but life changing....

So when faced with a weird scarey thing.... take a deep breath & fly..flap as fast as you can...& if you are in luck some gorgeous soul will blow air into your wings